Heading West Again


Three years ago when I left Oregon I made the commitment to return each summer.  My hope has been to stay connected with all of my friends out west and with the part of my heart I left out there.  I leave today for a trip and will be returning on the 29th.  The first week I am honored to be speaking at my buddy Austin’s camp from Grace Chapel. Excited to get to know his students and experience God working on Lake of the Woods in southern Oregon. Appreciate your prayers for that.

The second week I will be reconnecting with friends (would love to see you) and also getting some R & R.  While I wont be blogging, I will be tweeting and posting to Instagram so feel free to follow my adventure there. Peace Out!

Floating Thoughts

  • Dad is in town again for the month of August. Excited to have him over for BBQ and a movie tonight.
  • Leave for Oregon on the 17th and will be out for 2 weeks.  I am speaking at a Summer Camp and also getting some much needed vacation time in.
  • Stress is high as I have alot to get done before I leave for that trip.
  • Tomorrow I am going to the Hillsong Young & Free experience at NorthRidge. Definitely excited for a night of worship.
  • I really enjoyed Guardians of the Galaxy…pretty edgy for a Marvel movie but I thought it was an enjoyable ride.
  • Loving my new LG phone!
  • Been reading another book: The Gifts of Imperfections by Brene Brown…solid stuff as with Daring Greatly.
  • While I am bummed that my buddy Jim Jensen is leaving The River this week, I believe he has resigned with a ton of dignity and is a class-act.
  • Going back through The Last of Us on the PS4. Loved this game last year and believe its the first time I have played through a game twice…with the exception of course for multiplayer games. It is currently the highest rated video game in history!
  • Is it really August?!?

Benediction of Powerlessness

Friend of mine shared this blog post which I thought was really good and worth sharing here.

Benediction of Powerlessness

Imagine how you would feel if, at the end of worship, the minister asked you to receive a benediction which began like this:

May all your expectations be frustrated.

May all your plans be thwarted.

May all your desires be withered into nothingness.

You might not want to receive it, and you might wonder, “Just what kind of benediction is this?”

Jean Vanier, who founded L’Arche and has given his life to care for the developmentally disabled, once offered a benediction which began with those surprising words.  They don’t seem, at first, to do what a benediction is supposed to do, which is to bless the people of God with an affirmation of God’s presence, to encourage them for their lives in the world, to lift their gaze to the possibilities rushing into the present from God’s future.

Vanier’s words sound like a description of life as it already is, instead of a promise of what life might become.  Many people live too much of the time with frustrated expectations, thwarted plans, and withered desires.  A lot of people know more than they want to know about unfulfilled dreams, unrealized visions, and dashed hopes.

As Thoreau said, “The youth gets together his materials to build a bridge to the moon, or, perchance, a palace or a temple on the earth, and, at length, the middle-aged man concludes to build a woodshed with them.”

When we let ourselves feel what we really feel, we sense the pain of disappointment, the embarrassment of unreached potential, and the shame of failure.  These wounds alienate us from ourselves, isolate us from others, and distance us from God.

If Vanier had only said, “May all your expectations be frustrated, may all your plans be thwarted, and may all your desires be withered into nothingness,” there would be no blessing in his words.  But he also said: “That you may experience the powerlessness and poverty of a child and sing and dance in the love of God the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit.”

It is a blessing to learn that we are, in fact, powerless and impoverished—to know that we cannot create love or generate meaning or manufacture hope or originate joy for ourselves.  We can only receive them as gifts from God who sees us and cherishes us as children.

There are some things our hard work, our incessant striving, and our constant pushing cannot make happen; and they are the graces we most want: forgiveness, acceptance, rest, freedom and purpose.

Learning about powerlessness and poverty of spirit helps us to acknowledge, as Anne Lamott puts is, “the three most terrible truths of our existence: that we are so ruined, and so loved, and in charge of so little” (Help, Thanks, Wow.) 

Because we are so loved, and because God, who does not cause our struggles, will work with us not to waste them, there is blessing in the darkness, mercy in our brokenness, grace in our failure, and courage in unwanted but unavoidable change.  There are good gifts wrapped in hard circumstances.  There is a loving God who meets us and sustains us in the desert of difficulty.

(you can find the original post HERE)

Feeling Old

The longer you travel the journey of life the more things start to make you feel old.  Recently at our middle school group I introduced them to Simon, a popular toy from my childhood.  I asked them to raise their hands if  they had ever heard of it and over half of them had not.  This got me thinking there is alot that makes me feel old:

  • Students I had in middle school ministry getting married
  • THIS Radio Shack commercial
  • “Throwback” Mountain Dew
  • You can no longer ride the Demon Drop at Cedar Point
  • Working with students who were born in the year I graduated High School
  • Everyone in your family says you look just like your father
  • My phone has more memory than the computer I had in High School
  • It has been 14 years since Y2K
  • This blog is a decade old

What about you? What stuff makes you feel old?

Broken Vessels

Loving the new Hillsong worship album “No Other Name.” As usual there’s usually one song that rises to the top and is constantly on repeat. Check this one out: Broken Vessels.

Floating Thoughts

  • Had a good holiday weekend up north with friends…as usual it went by too fast!
  • Ministry expectations have to shift during the summer…while you would think with students out of school they would have more free time…I have found their attendance is much less predictable.
  • THIS is my next smartphone…out next Thursday.
  • Been shooting the past couple of weeks. My goal this summer is to become proficient with my handgun. I still am thinking about getting my CPL license.
  • Finished A Million Miles in a Thousand Years by Donald Miller. Reminded me a bunch of meeting and hearing him speak at a Men’s Retreat years ago while he was writing the book. Best was disc golfing with him and Austin.
  • I cannot believe it’s the middle of July…summer is going by sooo quickly.
  • We got a bunch of hand written thank you notes from residents we met during Impact Week at Grace Centers of Hope. So thoughtful and I couldn’t be happier with our team.
  • Seeing Hillsong Young & Free at Northridge on August 5th…want to join me? Get tickets HERE.
  • Read this in my daily reading this week…powerful when you think about it. Might blog about it someday soon:

    They followed worthless idols and themselves became worthless.  2 Kings 17:15b